It has been almost three weeks since we learned of Georgia's heart condition and yet I still can hardly believe this is happening. I was reading more on the internet this evening--more about fetal heart block mostly. It seems so odd to be reading medical case studies and abstracts all of a sudden (and on a Saturday night no less). Neil doesn't want me to read anything because it tends to increase my worry, and that is true to some extent, but I think it also helps me to be prepared and to not feel totally helpless. There is so much uncertainty right now. I just need to know something. But no matter how much I read, I know I won't find the answers to the big questions... Will Georgia be okay? Will I be okay? This is such a double-edged sword. My main concern is with Georgia, but I can't ignore the concern that I may have something that could affect my ability to parent all of my children someday.